Patrick Roche - “Couples Therapy” (NPS 2014)
"Every thursday, I go to couples therapy with my depression. He whispers in my ear to stay in bed for another day, presses his palm into my chest, afraid I’m going to escape the covers."
Performing during the Button Showcase at the 2014 National Poetry Slam.
Now that I think of it, that was really selfish of you. You don’t do that to someone you love, or well truly loved at some point. You try to reach me, making me believe it was about the ferrets, with no intention of actually doing anything. Yet again with your empty promises. Once I respond you go on about how I’ve found someone new and how I’m this and that. Always trying to bring me down. Tell me to fuck off, when you’re the one who contacted me.
I’m not really sure where you even get this shit from. Even if I was looking for and did find someone new, and was even able to open up to anyone like that again, so what? I’m supposed to feel guilty about it? I’m supposed to be miserable because you are? I’m not allowed to try to move on or try to be happy, even though we’re strangers now?
I’m a heartless bitch, why? Because I choose to not let you tear me down anymore? Because I choose not to argue and fight with you anymore?
I let you get to me twice. But now you can join the club with everyone else who dislikes me. Follow their example and leave me out of the bullshit.
I’m sorry you feel the way you do, but I will not take sole blame for this aftermath. I’m sorry you’re so angry; that you hate and resent me now. I’m sorry we didn’t work out. I’m sorry it ended the way it did, but I will not apologize for attempting to be happy without you. You would never believe me, so I saved my breath, but I will always love you and care about you. I hope you find peace and happiness. I hope all the best for you and your family, I really do.
"Curing AIDS? Shit, that’s like Cadillac making a car that lasts for 50 years. And you know they can do it, but they ain’t going to do nothing that fucking dumb. Shit, they got metal on the Space Shuttle that can go around the Moon and withstand temperatures of up to 20,000 degrees, you mean to tell me you don’t think they can make an El Dorado with a fuckin’ bumper that don’t fall off?"
- Chris Rock (“Bigger and Blacker”, 1999)